Most people that turn 18 would probably think "Im an adult and I can do whatever I want now!" well, that doesn't really go well with my mom. I wanted to be 18 so bad before. I would think I could live on my own, have my own car, school will be easy and I can party all the time. I wanted to get to the point where I did not have to hear my mom tell me to clean my room or tell me to go do the dishes or that my grades are low so I have to get my ass on check, or else. Well, like they say, "be careful what you wish for" because being 18 is the most stressful stage in my life so far. My life right now consists of baying bills, working my ass of at work, having a bunch of homework; half of which I dont understand, and STILL living with my mom. So she STILL nags about me not cleaning my room, doing the dishes, and getting my ass on check because school is not going so good for me right now. I have been trying to move out for months now, but It's hard to find a good roomate that you know wont bail on you when it's time to pay rent. I am kind of stuck living with mom for a while. Being 18 is a bitter-sweet situation, yes I get alot of freedom that I didn't get before, but I also get alot of stress. Before I go to bed I dont think about how amazing my day was, I think about what bill I have to pay next, am I going to have enough money to pay that bill, did I do all of my homework and alot of other things that I will probably think about again tonight. I can't wait for me to finish college. I just want to get to a point in my life where change isn't needed. Where I can go to sleep in PEACE! (:
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